I don’t need you, oh yes I need you
Don’t believe you, now I believe you
I couldn't be bothered to see to
All these lies, yeah I deceived you
Never wanted to fucking leave you
Trigger finger makes my mind see through
Divide divine and now we’re just two
What the fuck have I just come to
It’s too late for for my friends I adore
They won’t see I’m a drag anymore
I need new people to kill in my war
Searching for something new to die for
Neglected my wealth, hate myself, hid deep down
I’m a black hole and it is unpleasant to be around
Left penniless with no common cents
All my complacency has become so impoverished
Nostalgia buried in a cemetery
My journal reads like an obituary
I've become so weak and languid, I cry multilingual tears
Because crying is the same in every language, consumed by fear

Crumble to dust, muted in my screams
Cold my chorus, corroded in dreams
All of my life functions will cease
Inhale stale dust of You and me
I self sabotage with anxiety
Only now can my cold, dead heart see
Missing You always is a part of me
Like an amputated limb that won’t stop when I start to bleed
And yet there’s still dead hope I cling to
If I ever want to be devastated again, girl
I want it to by be You

It took disaster to open my eyes
Seeking sobriety in drugged lives
Through hazy lies but I want more
Than these damn predetermined goodbyes
How the fuck could it come this
A terrible mistake to let go of bliss
For something real, how can I heal
When the suture’s torn from rusty steel
Buried under the weight of my own existence
I hurried the demise of Your persistence
Time with You incinerated in an instant
Sifting through ashes of Us, now You’re distant
Love a get rich quick scheme that won’t last
I’ve done all this before in my wretched past
For You mon amour, You mon amour, j’adore
Ohhhh goddammit I coulda done more

Riptides are flooding my insides
Drifting in a body not mine
Enamored with oblivion’s embrace
I’d rather die than live with disgrace
In my sleep all of my best dreams
Are nightmares soaked in this goddamn grief
Oh god why couldn’t I see You
Smothered from my selfishness, I need to

Know afterthoughts before they happen, I
Always look for ways to complicate my depression
I breath bitter air that makes women doubt me, I
Would rather die than love. But I did die. I did die. Please
Yeah I got knocked down but I made it through
Echoing silence, whispers of You
Like a gun in the mouth safer than talking
Or drunk driving safer than walking
You promised me
You promised me
You
Fucking promised me
How do I live
Without You
Let it bleed through
Still I miss you
You promised me
You promised me
Now all I see
It was all on me

It was all on me
It was all on me
It was all on me
It was all on me